Breaking Through

In fact, a master plan: How to reinvent myself in 45 days. I’m a mother of 2 and a wife to a caring husband. We live in the UK in a house that we spent a lot of time and money on to look just as we wanted. So I have everything that people regard as important to be happy. Although I feel happy I think that there is a part of me missing and I’m desperate to find out what it is. So here is a woman trying to reinvent herself at the age of 44. Furthermore, a woman seeking her real identity.For a long time, I tried to find a way to accommodate my personal life, motherhood and return to my career, but I found it so complicated that, in the end, I decided to be a just a full time mum. Being a mother is a complex role. It gives you pleasure, but- God, it’s hard work! At first, I didn’t cope very well,but after my second child was born, I realised how important my role as a mother was, so I felt happy to be helping my children to grow into confident individuals. This crisis I’ve overcome. The mother in me is happy. I just need to sort out the woman and the professional.The question is: How to reinvent myself? I have no clue , but I’ll try every possibility on the next 45 days.

Monday, 14 March 2011

Day four

It’s clear that I have a problem with my wardrobe. I feel that in the last 6 months I have completely lost my style. So buying clothes has become a chore not a pleasure. Some things I like but I think they  are unsuitable for me (a middle aged woman!) and the things  that should suit me, I don’t like at all.        I have to say that the winter does not help. I don’t like the cold and therefore, I don’t feel like dressing up in style. To be honest I feel like hibernating.  So I end up wearing the same old same. I feel sorry for my husband. He married a beautiful and fashionable woman and ended up with me.  
My style?  No style at all. But this is just for now. I new stylish woman is about to appear. Or re- appear in 45 days. I mean 41 days.
I’ve started clearing my wardrobe. I’m trying to be very disciplined  and leave only the things that I ‘m going to wear.  I’ve tried to do this before, but I always think that this or that top will be good with that trouser in the Spring...
-         NO! This time, everything must go.
Anyway, this job will take me forever and It is time to pick the children up, etc, etc.  Sometimes I feel like I’m running a marathon.
Posted by I'm Julia, a woman with a plan at 14:03

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