Breaking Through

In fact, a master plan: How to reinvent myself in 45 days. I’m a mother of 2 and a wife to a caring husband. We live in the UK in a house that we spent a lot of time and money on to look just as we wanted. So I have everything that people regard as important to be happy. Although I feel happy I think that there is a part of me missing and I’m desperate to find out what it is. So here is a woman trying to reinvent herself at the age of 44. Furthermore, a woman seeking her real identity.For a long time, I tried to find a way to accommodate my personal life, motherhood and return to my career, but I found it so complicated that, in the end, I decided to be a just a full time mum. Being a mother is a complex role. It gives you pleasure, but- God, it’s hard work! At first, I didn’t cope very well,but after my second child was born, I realised how important my role as a mother was, so I felt happy to be helping my children to grow into confident individuals. This crisis I’ve overcome. The mother in me is happy. I just need to sort out the woman and the professional.The question is: How to reinvent myself? I have no clue , but I’ll try every possibility on the next 45 days.

Tuesday, 15 March 2011

Day five - Get Fit

I’ve decided that, while I am in the mood, I’m going to try -  let me rephrase that – I’ll lose some weight. I almost had a heart attack this morning when I weighed  myself: 70kg. This is more than 10 stones.  I’ve  always been 58, 59 kg, but 70kg it’s far too much.   I’ll be definitely paying a visit to the gym.   I haven’t been there for a long time.
Now I understand why my clothes don’t fit anymore. And I was blaming their qualities. Really thought they have shrunk . Silly me...
Shut my mouth. That’s what I’m supposed to do.  I might even  try a diet. 
Hum.... Perhaps not.   I could never go on a diet.  Unless they have invented one  that does not EXCLUDE bread, or cheese, or meat, or pasta, or...
I think I’ll stick to the gym. It’s impossible to concentrate on a diet when that chocolate cake is smiling at me every  time I go to the kitchen. Sometimes it even blinks  at me. How could I possibly resist it?  Because I need to.
So, today for lunch I had a salad... And a big piece of that chocolate cake for dessert.
Posted by I'm Julia, a woman with a plan at 13:27

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