Breaking Through

In fact, a master plan: How to reinvent myself in 45 days. I’m a mother of 2 and a wife to a caring husband. We live in the UK in a house that we spent a lot of time and money on to look just as we wanted. So I have everything that people regard as important to be happy. Although I feel happy I think that there is a part of me missing and I’m desperate to find out what it is. So here is a woman trying to reinvent herself at the age of 44. Furthermore, a woman seeking her real identity.For a long time, I tried to find a way to accommodate my personal life, motherhood and return to my career, but I found it so complicated that, in the end, I decided to be a just a full time mum. Being a mother is a complex role. It gives you pleasure, but- God, it’s hard work! At first, I didn’t cope very well,but after my second child was born, I realised how important my role as a mother was, so I felt happy to be helping my children to grow into confident individuals. This crisis I’ve overcome. The mother in me is happy. I just need to sort out the woman and the professional.The question is: How to reinvent myself? I have no clue , but I’ll try every possibility on the next 45 days.

Wednesday, 30 March 2011

Day 19 - Preparing the children

I always wondered how women who have 2, 3, sometimes 4 children, manage to work full time, look  after the house, be a mother, a woman and still smile.
I don’t know how they do it and I don’t know how I’m going to do it –  let me introduce myself , I’m  Mrs. Tortoise! - and yet,  I’m up for it.
So today I had a wonderful conversation with my children, preparing them for the worse.
-How do you feel about mummy finding a job?
- Cool.
-Well, I’m looking for a job, which means that if I find it, we won't have as much time together and the two of you will have to stay in the after school club for 3, maybe 4 days per week.
-"Awesome " - one said.
- “Yes, I always wanted  it”- the other one completed. "When can we start?"
That was a short conversation!  I was so disappointed . I thought they would be devasted for not having "mummy" around all the time.
I guess the big deal is not the children, it’s going to be finding the job.
Bring it on.
Posted by I'm Julia, a woman with a plan at 16:17

1 comment:

  1. Anonymous31 March 2011 at 06:26

    I like it, although it is a moment of uncertainty and sadness for this person, it is portrayed light and humorously!

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