Breaking Through

In fact, a master plan: How to reinvent myself in 45 days. I’m a mother of 2 and a wife to a caring husband. We live in the UK in a house that we spent a lot of time and money on to look just as we wanted. So I have everything that people regard as important to be happy. Although I feel happy I think that there is a part of me missing and I’m desperate to find out what it is. So here is a woman trying to reinvent herself at the age of 44. Furthermore, a woman seeking her real identity.For a long time, I tried to find a way to accommodate my personal life, motherhood and return to my career, but I found it so complicated that, in the end, I decided to be a just a full time mum. Being a mother is a complex role. It gives you pleasure, but- God, it’s hard work! At first, I didn’t cope very well,but after my second child was born, I realised how important my role as a mother was, so I felt happy to be helping my children to grow into confident individuals. This crisis I’ve overcome. The mother in me is happy. I just need to sort out the woman and the professional.The question is: How to reinvent myself? I have no clue , but I’ll try every possibility on the next 45 days.

Thursday, 24 March 2011

Day 13

Day 13 - Fridge magnets
Today while I was cleaning my fridge I started to think about the messages behind the fridge magnets. Are they mere decorations or what do they say about our lives?
A long time ago someone gave me a postcard which stuck on my fridge for a while.  It said :  “Once I had a life, now I have small children.”
At that time I was enchanted by motherhood, so I thought it would read better this way: “Once I had a selfish mind. Now I have wonderful children.”
A few weeks ago I visited a friend and wherever I went in the house,  there was this message printed in A6 paper.
“KEEP CALM, CARRY ON!”
  It would be funny, if the situation wasn’t so desperate: she has 4 children.
For every occasion there is a fridge magnet. One can choose. Some are funny, some are stylish, some are over the top.  Some carry very important messages. And some are there just to hold a reminder of the things we need to do.
On my fridge it couldn’t  be different, I have  a few and they all carry  a nice message.  But the one that I really relate to has a  cartoon of a woman collapsed on a chair, one hand over her head,  looking rather desperate. It says:
“  I’m a woman. I’m invincible. I’m tired.”
And today I am... really tired...
Posted by I'm Julia, a woman with a plan at 14:59

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