Breaking Through

In fact, a master plan: How to reinvent myself in 45 days. I’m a mother of 2 and a wife to a caring husband. We live in the UK in a house that we spent a lot of time and money on to look just as we wanted. So I have everything that people regard as important to be happy. Although I feel happy I think that there is a part of me missing and I’m desperate to find out what it is. So here is a woman trying to reinvent herself at the age of 44. Furthermore, a woman seeking her real identity.For a long time, I tried to find a way to accommodate my personal life, motherhood and return to my career, but I found it so complicated that, in the end, I decided to be a just a full time mum. Being a mother is a complex role. It gives you pleasure, but- God, it’s hard work! At first, I didn’t cope very well,but after my second child was born, I realised how important my role as a mother was, so I felt happy to be helping my children to grow into confident individuals. This crisis I’ve overcome. The mother in me is happy. I just need to sort out the woman and the professional.The question is: How to reinvent myself? I have no clue , but I’ll try every possibility on the next 45 days.

Wednesday 13 April 2011

Day 22 – How does the story ends?

What do you do when you are in the middle of something and you feel like giving it up? What do you do when all your answers become  questions and what you are doing seems to be pointless? 
 I got to this point a few days ago.  Moved by dramatic events in the life of two different people that I know, I started to  think that there are more important things in life. 
 I didn’t stop recording everything I did, but  I stopped posting it, because I didn’t want to sound negative.  I was about to delete my blog when I thought of something my father always told me:  “if you are about to do something stupid, stop, sleep on it, before you make your decision.”   
 One has to make allowance for the fact the I felt tired,  so I slept on it for over a week.  z z z z z z
Just a few days looking at this challenge from a different  perspective gave the answer  that I needed and  I’m now ready to post my thoughts and carry on with my challenge, which I’ll definitely complete successfully. Remembering, of course,  that life is a book full of different stories and we all write a new chapter everyday.   No matter how sad, funny or challenging other people’s stories seem to be,  yours  is always the most important one. You can not interfere in other people’s stories,or let them influence yours. You just have to keep writing your own, beautifully.

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